ambitions

POLICE when i was 7. ahhaha. don't ask why. all kids only know police and thief at this age. and mom says jadi yang baik. so yup polis lah! ;D

SINGER when i was 10. ermm. i was 8 when i competed one stage with Amy search's Nabila huda's best friend and Nur syamimi arziana [once was incorporated with Andy lala dan selalu keluar tv ;P] *considered 'org2 famous lar ok'. hee. ohh ulang semula. competed with them in a competition and i won 3rd! E.though cikgu cakap my voice was tremendously beautiful and should won 1st tapi sbb i wasn't associated with any tv station so judges bias. ahh tak kisah la!

FASHION DESIGNER, when i was 14. growing up. love clothes. know boys nak melawa nak cantik-cantik..hahah *gedik*!

INTERIOR DESIGNER when i was 17. tapi batalkan niat sebab dapat tahu classmate macam ramai sangat nak jadi ID jugak. lost appetite. i know..i am weird. i hate thing that mostly chosen by people dengan sengaja! no identity and no genuinity.

CIVIL ENGINEER while i was doing both my diploma and degree. belajar engineering takkan nak jadi cikgu pulak kan? typically thinking that way lar. padahal i don't even know whats the profession is all about and i don't even imagine myself as one. *manusia yang sesat haihh*

i constantly asked myself. cita-cita tu apa sebenarnya? and i just thought it should not be about name or label or ermmm i dunno but i think ambition isn't a verb.

it is not about Who we are. it's more about What we are. bukan tentang Menjadi sesuatu tapi adalah tentang Mendapatkan sesuatu...being in the state of owning, being contented at a certain stage of life. can?

so start thinking....

I wanna be beautifully me inside out forever, meeting prince charming who aren't scared of dirt but always clean [if you know what i mean.hope you don't bahaahah], having a good flow of money in, living peacefully in a loving home, being contented in a moderately happy life, sincerely love and being loved. now that! what i call ambition. wheeew!

I dream big.yes. but deep down inside, i know i only need little. :)