I don't wanna have a heart. :_________ ((

okay actually baru je lepas off laptop neh.and then tiba2 sekarang rasa marah sangat kepada sesuatu and i don't even know nak cakap kat siapa. huhh gosh..it's suck heh when you really hate something but you have no choice but just to accept it or you really wanna do something but you just can't for some reason.

i just hate to look at those bitches. once a bitch always a bitch they said. i say, once a bitch twice, a slut! i just thought in my mind. tolong lah berhenti jadi seorang primadona! walaupun kau mmg seorang primadona yang bagus. everything just go your way. lucky you! at least buat masa sekarang.

God is fair isn't HE??? i'll just wait. with this pain and hate. i would wait.

dan kemudian ada satu cerita lagi. ibu bapa yang senang-senang tinggalkan anak-anak bawah umur tengah-tengah malam. i mean 11 pm?? seriously?? your kids are going to school tommorow man... you guys seriously just leave them home?? let them just take care of themselves?? like omg seriously dude??? shame.

it's suck to hear this 'haah mom n dad aren't home. macam biasalah. takpe lar. biarlah malas nak fikir. esok when i go to school.i will be happy again'. seriously that hurts me much! i feel like crying for them.

okay seriously guys. i think you guys don't have a heart! not at all. or may be those alcohols actually did damaged your brain hard enough.

L : dorg pegi mana?
N : mcm biasa lah...
L: adik buat ape??
N:tgok tv..
L:ok takpe lah. jaga adik ok. nanti tido. ye?
N:ok [suara sebak. i know tears coming down!]
L: i love you..
N: love you too.

at this point of time. i just hope that i don't own a heart. so i don't feel anything. i won't care about anything. i wish thing could be easy like that.

because my heart just care so much. my heart is fragile that way. my heart cry easily.

and yes. it's a big deal for me. big full deal!

don't say i never warned you ~

Be careful who you open up to.. Only a few actually C A R E, the rest are just C U R I O U S

earth hour holiday.

never thought of celebrating earth hour 2011 in Langkawi. but that was it. i just got back from having serene dinner by the sea. lots of mat salleh plus minah sallehah here. together we ate and spread the spirit of mother nature. *super love the idea*

candles are everywhere in this Mutiara Burau Bay resort. it is a very cold night with wild wave of the sea. fantastics.

chocolate shopping session, done today's evening, at pekan Kuah. yummmss plenty of dark chocolate. *favourite!*

while i'm writing this..kids are on the bed watching Mr bean..sekejap lagi mata semua mesti pejam kuat. penat sangat i can see that. hee.

an awkward feeling thinking my coke cans are now sharing the same space with those tiger and carlsberg.. ermmm.. ~

tommorow session... most probably going snorkeling and bagi ikan gigit kaki. =)

p/s : feel like missing somebody. awkward again. hahaha. goodnight all.

Mad and mumble.

I'm mad. no no i'm just disappointed. naaahhh i'm mad actually. well, i'm in a state where everything just doesn't work out the way it should or at least the way i imagine it would. i'm furious. with own self. did i make a wrong decision? did i make a wrong move? i miscalculated it?? urghhh..

I only have this one question in my mind right now...

why does it always easy for others, why does it come the hardest way for me?

and i don't even know to whom that this question should be thrown.

craving mcD, for they always know how to please me. = )

kura-kura

i deleted you from my FB. obviously that i don't wanna be friend with you anymore. were you too blind to see that? or too dumb to realize that?you send me msges on FB. i did not reply to any. wasn't it obvious enough?

and when you see me online on ym. you pretend like we are good friend saying 'hi' * with giggling-white-tooth emoticon*? and then 'blink2 eyes emoticon'...lets see when i don't reply somemore u says 'sombongnyeee'. was that a joke please??!

p/s seriously because you were so damn pathetically annoying guy back then, that's y i dumbed you. it is just my nature to hate those who don't actually know who i am yet pretend like we share a bed! acting like you are the closest to me, that you know all about me and start to bitch out about stuffs *related to me*, more than my best friend would do. that was pretty amazingly annoying.

i bet you don't know that? so kura-kura. and your not forgiven. and yes i am mean. and yess i don't care. you might wanna call me bitch. 'like i care?!' sungguh tidak kesah okay.

just like coffee.for the best quality, keep only the best beans
throw the rest.they are simply not worth it for keeping.

I love hazelnut coffee.
the fine quality one. sips.

girlfriend.

she with her girlfriend.

i miss my ayue... we used to tell each other everything that happen in our life, everyday that we met before we went into the call floor. now that we no longer working together. i really am missing those time. because texting on the phone lack some real expressions, it does not feel that good.

however girlfriend, i would try to listen to your wise words *wise words from you heh? rolling eyes kejap* ahhaha. those words help i guess. it is time to think about myself huh? ohh dan dengar cakap mak whatever it is.. e.though parent can be ridiculous at times huh *ur such anak mama ok!*

thank you for that. now i'm so fine again. dah tak nak marah-marah lagi. my heart's getting darker day by day bila asik nak fikir pasal orang-orang jahat dan bila asik nak benci mereka. like you said... e.though it doesn't seems right, just ignore it. that's the best that i can do.

p/s : i wanna hear good news from both of us the next time we meet again okay... can't wait jumpa and gedik2 dgn you lagi. hahahahhaa. cepat doa that i get a job soon nanti we go wayang together. my treat! ngehh.


love,
your girlfriend. ; P

monalisa.

kau memang perempuan paling fucker that i have ever known exist in this world! u have the most thicker pig skin on your face, i have no doubts! babi babi babi!

how can u just walked in ohh you parked far away...and u walked in like a coward! coward bitch! yet you put that mask on. that innocent mask on. you played that character perfectly monalisa! i salute on you for that! you speak so tenderly, almost like crying, being in that role perfectly. fooling all those people that are willingly to be fooled!

i really wanna tell you one thing. i read your diary long ago. i saw that message from your friend. she said ' shut up u bitch.u are a slut. u are just a pain in the ass !' I think she's damn right! like 8 years ago..someone already called you bitch? wheewws.

kau perempuan paling tak tahu malu dan tak sedar diri langsung! you don't own a heart! at least i'm sure that dark heart of yours, your family isn't there right?! fuuhhhhhhh..man i'm furious..i am.

sorry that i'm cursing. i was forced to shut up. i was forced to be dumb. this is my only chance! i should have a right to speak up. why do i have to shut my hell mouth up?

i hate you people! you guys lost your minds, it is a free country alright, democracy alright. but not in this. not anymore that this time is to tolerate. shame on you all! you lost insanity, you lost justification, you guys just let yourself to be fooled! psychology isn't practical at this time sedar lah sket please??? i hate that! i hate that!

ohh and that person waves you goodbye. aahhh ~! macam lah
kau sedang melakukan sesuatu yang amat mulia seperti
kau nak pergi berbakti berperang berjuang untuk bangsa atau
negara. waves to you goodbye macam 'kitorg akan rindu kau
sangat nanti dear Monalisa!..pulanglah cepat *tears*'
aahhh ~ merapu sangat! muntah sekarang!

I spit on your face! because i hate this moment so much, with every drops of my blood that i'm hating this too much!.

Dear you.

Dear you,

you remind me of me. that's what i like about you, that you remind me of me.

thank you.